Saturday, January 27, 2007
Isn't it funny how fate always make a joke on you? How it always give you hope yet cruelly take it back when you least expected it?
Or how hilarious it is to bring your past emotional baggage into your relationship when all you wanted was a new start?
Or how weird love can be when you thought you had everything that you have always dream of yet concurrently it blinded you to the harsh facts of reality?
I think i had enough of all this charades. It takes two to clap and if one party ain't ready to have that commitment, nothing else matters.
With that said, i have decided to shut this blog down once and for all. Let this be a new start for me in seach of better days. The world is already a scary place to live in. But nevertheless, the journey shall still continue. i shall take this lessons of life close to my heart and soul. And promise myself never to commit the same mistakes that had been done not only by me, but by mankind itself.
To all the people out there, take good care of yourself and may happy time beckons upon us. God willing.
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3:12 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
It has been a very long journey. And a tiring one i might say. But now that nature has taken it's own course, life has never been blissful and i'm enjoying every moment of it. For all my imperfections, she complete me. And I'm thankful to her for that.
It was funny how the whole process took place. She was in Australia. I was in Singapore. Somehow the distance couldn't deny the feelings that we shared. Things weren't expected to happened and it did. All along, we were in denials. Or more specifically, me. I though it was impossible. She proved to me otherwise. Though certain things could be avoided, things do happen for a reason and what matters most is that we are happy being together now.
She's like a dream come true to me. She's soft-spoken, gentle, caring, demure, matured beyond her age and most important of all, she loves me. And I love her too. I can never wish for someone better.
I'm gonna work hard for this relationship. Promises are not meant to be broken and I intend to keep to my words, for better or worse. For all the mistakes and lessons in life, she won't ever be hurt. 'Cause I'll be a fool if I were ever to do that. Well surely the wait was worthwhile. And I'm content. No words can ever describe the feelings in me.
For this, I wanna say thank you, baby. For wanting to willingly share you life with me. For trusting me to look after you and your precious heart. For including me in your future. You won't ever regret the decisions that you've made. I promise you that.
From the bottom of my heart,
I love you.
A1 & A2 ~ 10.01.07
Smashmouth - I'm a believerI thought love was only true in fairy tales Meant for someone else but not for me Ah, love was out to get to me That's the way it seemed Disappointment haunted all my dreams Then I saw her face Now I'm a believer Not a trace Of doubt in my mind I'm in love I'm a believer I couldn't leave her if i triedI tried I thought love was more or less a givin' thing Seemed the more I gave the less I got What's the use in tryin' All you get is pain When I needed sunshine I got rain Ah, love was out to get to me Now, that's the way it seemed Disappointment haunted all my dreams Yes, I saw her face Now I'm a believer There's not a tra-a-a-ace Of doubt in my mind Well, I'm a believer Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ah-uh-uh I'm a believer
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11:55 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
What a blast my birthday has been. It's the best ever for the past 24 years no doubt about it. And it's a blessing in disguise.
Will update soon. Pretty much drained out now.
Hoo hoo!! :)
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2:25 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
10 January is here upon me once again. Another year past by without battling an eyelid. So much had happened yet the feeling of euphoria seemed so distant away. Life is lacking that extra oomph. But nevertheless I'm surrounded by great people around me. I guess that somehow take away the mindset that has been bugging me especially of lately. Well I reckon you guys out there know what is it about so I shall gladly spare myself the agony of writing it down here. Heh.
The past year has actually been pretty mundane for me. Except for the 2 KL trips, nothing much has been going on. Participated in NDP taking care of Mr President. Earning my chevron rank. Getting my big bike. Meeting lotsa new people and (obviously) losing some in the same process. People getting attached. And yeah, and don't forget engaged (congrats once again to Zaid and Wan for taking that further step in your relationships). All the heartaches. Quarrelling over stupid stuffs. Managed to talk to
her (albeit for awhile only. Hur hur.). Making foolish decisions where love is concerned (life is always a bitch isn't it?). The regrettable actions. If only we can all turn back the time to change something for the good. But yeah. Reality bites. So forget it. Time to look forward I guess. Haha. And yeah. How can I forget. 5 months exactly to ORD lorrrrr. I know I'm abit old for that but come on, you were in my shoes once and felt the same thing too before right? Better late then never. They always say that. Hah.
And so I shall be optimistic on my special day. E
verything will be fine in the end. If it's not, it isn't the end yet. Logical enough?
Well, there isn't anything that I'm looking forward to this year. I just hope that beside starting my career (that too if I'm able to decide what I wanna do after NS), I hope that everything will remain the way they are (progressive surprises is a bonus though).
I'm just glad at this tender age of twenty-four, I still got my family here with me. Though I know they won't say it, I know they love me very much. So thank you Dad, Mum and Sis. For being there when I needed comfort the most. For the times you pull me back from being swayed by bad influences. When I thought I almost drowned from suffocations, you were there for me. So thank you once again, for my existence will not be worthwhile without you by my side. I love you all.
Happy 24th birthday amin.....
PS.It's raining cats and dogs right now. Right at the stroke of midnight. Could it a sign of good things to come? *wonders*
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12:00 AM
