Thursday, December 30, 2004


Met her this evening. Been almost 3 weeks since i last saw her and the feeling while waiting for her was like the first time ever i met her. I had butterflies in my stomach. The meet-up was great. Got lotsa of things to talk about, lotsa of drama and acts. And not to forget laughters. I appreciate that she's willing to give me another chance at "us".

But somehow, i have mix-feelings about this. During the 3 weeks we never meet or talk, i found out she've been going out with new people. So it's like while i'm here suffering waiting for her, she's kinda enjoyed herself in the presence of someone else. I know i have no right to stop her from whoever she went out with but i just felt that it's not fair to me. Maybe it's just my ego talking and so i will keep that in check. So what do you think?

Whatever it is, i'm just happy that she's back in my life. I'm gonna try my darnest to make things better for good. Miss her pretty face. Felt like hugging her but refrained from doing so. Asked her whether she would be most willing to spend the new year countdown with me. It would be a great honour for me to be able to start a new year with someone special. Still haven't reply me. Maybe she's asleep. She had a tiring day at work today, so no complains.

Back. Just finished talking with her on the phone for two hours. She was awaken by her friend messaging her and thus gave me a call. It's great! So many things to talk about. I nearly forgot how wonderful it is to talk to her, when not arguing over something. Maybe I should just not be an supa-irritating guy and be nice to her from now onwards. I mean, if that will make things work out, why not right? No words could describe how delightful i'm feeling right now. Could she ever be the one? I hope so.

Am sleepy right now. Gonna smoke a fag and straight to bed. Ciao.

PS. I be dreaming of her tonight. Simply into her.

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3:35 AM

Tuesday, December 28, 2004


Hoobastank - Ready For You

Go on, make me feel it's useless.
When in fact it's you that need to have me near.
So now keep me at safe distance
and with a little persistance I'll make it crystal clear.

I'll be around only if you want me to be there by your side.
I'm ready for you.
So don't be afraid 'cause I know what you're going through.
So when you think it's time
I'm ready for you.

Now you seem to be content with a one sided friendship
with you I've got to chase.
Slow down so I can smell the roses
but the road you've chose is crooked and unpaved.
my tires are spinning but to no avail.


Another superb song by Hoobastank. Simply meaningful.

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2:57 PM

"i hate you in every possible way" by Ashley Kerns

im sorry but i gotta say
how very much i hate you in every possible way

you made my life hell
you took advantage you casted a love spell

you really didn't love me
how could i be so blind i just couldn't see

you used me and treated me like dirt you caused me alot of pain and hurt

how could i be so wrong i thought our relationship was true i thought it was strong

you caused my heart to break
all the misery you put me through i just couldn't take

so now im really gonna say goobye i wont let u back in my life and thats not a lie


That's what she wrote in EC. Ok amin get the hint. Period.

Been doing alot of soul-seaching during the trip to KL last weekend (yes, again. This time with my family). I must say i can't stop thinking about her. But i've finally realised, that if ever we were meant to be together, our path wil cross again one day. I ain't gonna stop in my path of life just because she's gone. I still haven't see the world yet. Haven't meet new people yet. I'm gonna end all this emotional shit of mine now. No more mourning of how i miss her and how i need her in my life. Fuck it all! I'm gonna be strong. I can do it!!

Planning with zaid by the time we are 25 and working full-time, would really wanna visit Geneva. That will be totally cool. I can go snowboarding! Always wanna try. Or go backpacking across Europe. See, there's always life after someone so dear left you. I just have to be absolutely positive. I'm gonna think about her once in awhile but "That feeling happens at some point in life" right?

Ohh what the hell.


PS. Hope this year new year celebration countdown is much better than the previous one. Went to chijmes for salsa. Nice but would like to try something different this year. The countdown begins now.

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2:25 AM

Friday, December 24, 2004

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you,
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your heart,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will Love You."

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2:28 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

"..Wen i c u smile, u look fine 2 me. But yr eyes seems 2 tell me a diff story. Like there's a tinge of sadness."

Bump into Seri yesterday at town. That's what she message me an hour later. She could never said it right. I was feeling down yesterday. Somehow i was hoping to bump into her, just to say a simple hi or a smile. Anything just to see her. But alas, i didn't. Tried to be as normal in front of the guys but in the end i would end up walking alone at the back. I don't know what has overcome me. It's like i can't move on. Damn. I'm feeling so shitty now that i can't do anything right. I wish things would turn around soon.

Somehow, i realised that i'm currently unemployed. It's like i got no direction in life right now, albeit i am waiting for my enlistment letter. But things are going real slow now that it almost make life seem so mundane. Talked to my cuz yesterday about matter of the heart. Damn my mum wanna intro me to a girl that somewhat is pretty (that according to her!). So what's up with all this man? Don't tell me even my mom knows i'm like a loser in love? That i need her help in finding my miss right?Oh come on now. Things can't be that bad right? I'm gonna take things real slow. Gonna find the right one myself. The one for me. I can't afford to experience all this again. Too much heart pains along the way just break me down. But before i could actually look for the one, i wanna make sure that i can support my family and myself first. No use having a special someone if you can't even support yourself. Have way too much plans for the both of us. I'm gonna learn from my past mistakes. I'm gonna treat her like i've never treat anyone before. She's gonna be my ultimate princess. Hah. At least there's some homour in me left. Or am i really joking? Hmmm, go figure.


Sagittarius and Capricorn

Sagittarius and Capricorn are quite temperamentally opposed. Easygoing Sagittarius is light-hearted, loves adventure and will bounce boldly into anything new and exciting. Conservative Capricorn is more interested in the long-term outcome, being a strange mixture of ambition and insecurity, with a need to prove things to themselves (and to the world).

Since this is a relationship of opposites, the intense sexual attraction between you will wash over the differences, but when the intensity begins to fade, you may focus on what you each imagine to be the other's flaws. You might perceive earth-bound Capricorn to be a bit of a stick-in-the-mud (except between the sheets), though your spendthrift soul will certainly appreciate the Goat's grounded understanding of and access to wealth.

Nevertheless, you can awaken in your Goaty lover the desire for some adventure and excitement, while Capricorn can encourage you to harness your energy, pay more attention to details and understand the social niceties that grease the wheels of human contact. Perhaps you, on the other hand, can teach this serious creature to lighten up a little.

However, Capricorn's demands are not easily satisfied by your flighty, lighthearted approach to love. In the art of lovemaking, Capricorn is enthusiastic and adventurous when aroused, but can be possessive and jealous when threatened. A light-hearted, flirty Sag can sometimes be overwhelmed by the intensity of the Sea-Goat's passion, coming as it does from beneath such an apparently cool exterior. Your approaches are totally different. Capricorn wants to climb to the top of the mountain, while Sagittarius wants to fly over the top.

Sagittarius, a Fire Sign, is ruled by expansive, outgoing Jupiter, while Capricorn, an Earth Sign, is governed by restrictive, structured Saturn. You'll jump into a new project on the strength of a good feeling, a philosophical assessment, while Capricorn wants to know the practical ins and outs of everything. Capricorn always worries about the consequences, but you love to get into things for the sake of your own personal satisfaction. Sagittarius, a Mutable Sign, is not much of a leader (though you'll happily play your part).

Capricorn, a Cardinal Sign, is quite creative and will originate good ideas and organise the best way to get the plan into action. This can help the relationship, so long as each other's roles are well defined. However, your frank outspoken nature is likely to upset Capricorn's conservative sensibilities. Capricorn is restrictive; a loner, famous for a somewhat dour outlook, while Sagittarius is venturesome, sociable and expansive. Capricorn is cautious with money and concerned with appearances -- and Sagittarius cares for neither of these. It's a difficult match.

PS. She highlighted that. "Its a difficult match". But, difficult is obviously not equal to impossible right? That she have to remember. "It's not always rainbows and butterflies it's compromise that moves us along"

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4:48 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Damn a van knock down my bike.

Now she's in a bad state.

Ouch my heart pains alot.



PS. Now that she has changed her profile pic, i feel that i really miss her alot. Of course, she look nice in it. Hot may i say. Damn i'm a goner.

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3:24 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Just woke up from a much-needed, long slumber. Came back home yesterday. Was so tired that i immediately went to bed. Damn do i miss KL. It was so fun that the days past us by so fast.

The night life there was superb. Went to Nouvo on friday night, followed by HRC and on sunday, was planning to go to Orange but it was closed down so we went to Nouvo again. Went to the indoor amusement park at Times Square. I tell you, the rides there are wicked. Especially the roller-coaster and viking. All the way 360 degrees turns. We were so dizzy and almost puke there, not to mention our throats almost popping out after all the shoutings. Gawd it was the ride of our life!! Did some shopping, lotsa of pictures taking, lotsa of eating, lotsa of laughing and so little of sleep. Not to mention staying at 3 different hotels over the 4 days 3 nights stay. Hotels fully booked. God knows how many hotels we have enquire with all without any rooms to spare. So much for not booking online. Hah! But no complaint though. I reckon i be going there again soon.

Still am so sleepy, have no mood to write longer. Later.

PS. Remember this - "Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met."

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2:00 PM

Sunday, December 19, 2004

I'm right here in KL as i'm writing this. Am at Bukit Bintang Hotel chilling at the cybercafe. Feeling real bored, waiting for time to go to Orange. Yippy! Been 3 great days here. Life here is simply superb. Met quite a number of friends here. Simply a paradise. Gonna come back home tomorrow. Have tonnes to write but gonna save it when i'm back home. Enjoy the remaining weekend.

PS. I was reminded of her yesterday at HRC when the live band (read name: The Big Band) played a couple of emorock songs. Songs like "Here Without You" and "The Reason". Songs that i associate with her. I was singing along like mad. And now i really miss her alot. Can't deny that. Oh well. Bubbye!!

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5:28 PM

Friday, December 17, 2004

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

What an apt song before i go off. I still think about her, and I still miss her.

Was just informed that nahar,ju,nizah,seri and rabiah will be going to KL tomorrow albeit at night. Hope could bump into them there. Miss the guys man. Just finish packing. Gonna slack for awhile. Wanna watch "Alexander". Been days since i bought the vcd. Still haven't watch yet. Hah. Till then, bon voyage!!!! KL, here i come!!!!!

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1:02 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2004


"Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin."

That's what she wrote as her msn nick. Am real curious what it meant. Or maybe i just wanna know whether it concern me. Right amin. Wake up. Move on. She's gone. She don't care/can't be bothered about you no more. Arggghhhh!!!!

Ok relax. I need to compose myself. Been 8 days since not talking to her. Felt like years. Wonder how she is doing right now. Always see her online everyday, but i always refrained myself from clicking on her nick and dropping by to say hi. I can't. 'Bcos i will know that she won't reply to my messages. Well that's her. Oh well.

Gonna pack my stuff soon. Damn less than 24 hours and i haven't start anything yet. Hope this trip will make me stop thinking about her. I wanna enjoy myself there. But on one hand, i'm gonna miss her alot. Why? Maybe knowing i'm thousand of kilometer away from her. Sigh. Get a life amin.

PS. Feeling shitty about the thoughts of just having a relationship again. My nick in msn? ~ LOVE: a word we love to hate!
Classic from her. Her nick when i just get to know her. I think i'm becoming a pessimist in love. Can't blame me though. Right?

The Calling - Stigmatized

If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what's true, will we ever be
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you

Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as i am
And live our lives, stigmatized

I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When i hear your voice, driving me insane
Hour after hour day after day
Every lonely night that i sit and pray

Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
And live our lives, stigmatized

We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives, stigmatized

We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way

I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides

We gotta live our lives
Gotta live our lives
Were gonna live our lives
We're gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives,
Stigmatized

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3:44 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004


"..U r not a loser, u juz happen to 2 b unlucky in love. N hana is 1 hell of a lucky girl 2 have some1 who loves her a lot. But it's her loss tat she choose 2 let go of a gem. Not yrs."

Seri message me that yesterday. Somehow i felt much better after reading it. Though i know it's my loss to lose her, i'm gonna try my best to forget her. But me a gem? Come on Seri. You can't be serious right? Hehe.

I think i'm feeling much better now. Just finish playing soccer just now. Didn't even think about her for once. I guess i be ok. Well i don't have a choice do i? Am listening to Alicia Key's Karma. I like the part "What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down." Something about that part. Go figure. Hee. Neway my mind is just set on KL. Going there this friday with my friends. Can't wait. Am really excited to go there. Just gonna take my mind off everything. 2 more days to go. Yippy! Well till then..

PS. If i were never to meet you, i would never understand the real meaning of love. Thanks alot. I'm gonna make sure i learn from all the painful lessons. I promise you, i will change for the good, even without you here with me. I will prove you wrong that i can indeed change.

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1:44 AM

Monday, December 13, 2004

3 Doors Down - Here without you

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that seperate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that this gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go,
It gets hard but it want take away my love.
And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.
It gets hard but it want take away my love.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.

PS. This song just make me feel so emotional. I'm a wreck.

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3:09 AM

Today something real bad happen. My mum get to know about Hana. Let me fill you in. I was using my cuz digicam when i took pics with Hana. He didn't delete it and as my uncle just bought a printer that can be connected to a digicam, he printed out a picture of me and her and gave it to my mum. I was damn shocked! I thought i would get a tongue-lashing from her but instead she told me Hana is pretty and ask whether she got any arab blood. God forgetting her seemed to get much more harder especially since my mum likes her. This is the first time ever she seemed so positive about the person i'm going out with. She must have taken a liking to her. Damn. What an irony. I can't be with someone whom my mum actually like. This is another first for me. I can no longer know what to do with my love life. I'm sick and tired.

Extracted from one of the emails i send to her not too long ago.

I’m in love. But I finally realize, being in love doesn’t mean you will end up with that someone. I have to face up to reality. You’re leaving. I couldn’t accept it. But now I just have to try. Just have to try real hard. I know it will be over soon. Gonna be extremely patient about it. Just don’t have to think about you. The things we do or go or share. It will be hard. I don’t know if I can do it. But I will be fine. Don’t worry. Below, highlights of 3 months being closed together. Enjoy.

- Went to Harbor Front, couldn't find place to sit. Remember we went around in circles just to find a place to sit. We gave up, sit at the carpark for awhile. You tried starting my bike for don't-know-how-many-times. Decided to go to West Coast for the first time.

- Went to Ikea after your work on a Sat. Found the "dream room". Then went to Junction 8 to catch “The Ghost” - boring show. Bought your specs there. We were then slacking, told me you will give me a treat if I pass my exams. I can forget about that now I guess.

- Was out with the guys. Talked about an hour. You wanted to meet me at town and to go back together. I can’t make it. You said you miss me. Was so touched.

- Met at town to catch first movie ever with you, “Harold & Kumar went to White Castle”. Damn hilarious show.

- Slack at bukit batok quarry. Remember the white lady sitting at e ledge story? You were so scared. And you really show it. Hee.

- Went to bugis. You drove, first and last time we took pics together. Watch Princess Diary 2. Just watch Princess Diary 1 yesterday. Slow type. Well, that’s me.

- Went to West Coast. Remember the group of boys teasing you about how brave you were? Well of course, you were my bodyguard. Hee.

- Chilling at West Coast, commenting when a couple hug right in front of us, told you they’re living for the moment. Some days later, we hug and you ask, is this the “moment”. Yes, that’s a moment, especially for me now.

- Kent ridge park, star-gazing, nice-scenery, fresh-air, cheap trills – running for our dear life. I miss that feeling. Hee.

- Twice went to Jelapang Banquet, twice you were not feeling well. Something about that place. Third time went there; you went to give tuition, bringing with you my exam notes. Waited 1 ½ hours doing nothing. I guess that place is jinx.

- Clementi to eat mama food. Doesn’t taste that nice the last time I ate there.

- Town, sat between Wisma n Taka. Spitting again & again near my feet. Find that somehow hilarious. Really enjoyed that day. You didn’t complained the way I dressed and ride for the first time ever. Really enjoyed the time. Conversation later on was much more superb. Thought was the turning point of the relationship.

- Break fast at Pizza Hut, you hated the Teriyaki pizza. I’m so sorry that you hated Teriyaki. Didn’t know that.

- Fell in love with “Accidentally in Love”, was walking at town, in this apparel shop, music video of it. First email ever that you send to me containing the lyrics to the song.

- East coast, purposely didn’t talk much since you keep teasing me. Really enjoyed yourself huh? It’s ok. I’m cool.

- Remember to visualize yourself on a cliff, to fall naturally?

- Your place

- My place

- Sembawang park

- Jurong east, after your interview. Couldn’t believe I can’t answer you 5 OS. Damn, what was I thinking.

- Jurong point, my immature, childish behavior. I regret that that day had to happen. I’m really sorry about it.

- Time when I quarrel with my parents? You wanted to spend your Sat away from BP. Dumb me didn’t bring extra helmet. But I couldn’t. At carpark, you reach out for my hand when I needed you the most. I was simply touched by the gesture.

- Remember Incubus?

- 24th Nov 2005. I will remember. Expect something on that day.

- Everything will be fine in the end. If it’s not fine then it’s not the end. Will hold on to this quote for a long long time.

Will stop pestering you already. I be gone, for good.

~~I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you~~
23th Aug ~ 8th Dec 2004 Missing you always...Hana..

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3:07 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Hana says "he only loves you when you're gone."

That's what she wrote at her link to me in EC now.

It's over. Game over. She's gone, for good. Leaving me looking like a fool again. Damn i hate the feeling in me right now. Was waiting for Zak just now. Was thinking about her and suddenly my eyes just get watery. I then realised i miss her. So much. But if this is the decision that she has made, then i shall respect it. It's hard. Losing someone you love so much is always hard. But i got no choice but to leave. There's only so much that i can do on my part. Gonna meet her in a few weeks to come, right after i'm back from KL, to take my sweater from her. I've always think that the moment i would take back my sweater will be the last time i will ever meet her. Gonna buy her a diamond ring soon. Wanna give her as a parting gift. Another first by me. Was planning it to hide it underneath a teddy bear or something. Bet she would be surprised. Touched? I don't know. I don't even know why i'm doing all this. Haiz. The true significance of her leaving only prove it that i'm still a loser in love. I shall always be. I'm gutted that this has to happen to me. Just when i had open up my heart to someone, she just have to break it to pieces. I'm so sick. Keep thinking about her day and night. Wonder how long i can put up the craziness in me right now. Hana, if only you could read this, I miss you so much. Tried as much i keep myself busy, you will still be there on my mind. I love you. Please give me a chance to make things right. Though i know that chance will never come to me again. Been waiting by my phone everyday. Waiting for her call/message. But it never came. I know i should move on, but i don't wanna stop thinking about her. She's the best that have ever happen to me. I'm simply into her. God, please help me. No words could describe the feelings in me right now. Doubt people would ever understand what i'm going through. Will just keep a strong front. I got no choice.

Finally, been able to settle down at my new place. Been quite hectic this past few days with cleaning up the house, etc. Imagine living without the TV, internet access, phone lines, newspaper. Life like in the caveman era. Damn, someone tell me not to take these things for granted again.

PS. Hana, I love you from the bottom of my heart. You're the best that have happen to me. Thanks for all the time together. I will cherish every single moment i've spent with you. Will never ever forget you. Take care. Will be missing you so much.

*Barry Manilow - Somewhere Down The Road*

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time

Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay,

But Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me

Sometimes goodbyes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home

* And Somewhere down the road

Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come

* Cause Somewhere down the road

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5:08 AM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

"thanks alot, that was so sweet of you to give me that card.."

Well maybe i was wrong, maybe she do appreciate the things that i do. It felt nice when she said that but nothing gonna change at all. I will still feel the same, unless she really can show me that we are meant to be. Not that i'm not gonna make any effort, surely i will, but i guess it's a game of waiting. It's ok, there's still alot of time ahead of us..Well till then..

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6:50 PM

"Even if u hv found Mr Right,it wldnt mean a ting if he doesnt feel e same..Gd morning!"

My heart almost skip a beat when i read that message when i was having my breakfast. That's like after so many days not talking. What does she mean by that? "Ohh..it's just a forwarded message ah". Right..as if i'm so dumb. Yet whatever it is, i choose not to believe the true content of that message. It can't be right. I will never be her mr right. Im not her type. That's for sure. But then why? I don't get it. Never will i know. Made for her a I'm-so-sorry card. For whatsoever reason, i don't know why. Just to show her i'm still here? *Puzzled* This is like the first ever card i've ever made for her or anybody else. Yup, not even with Raja or Hajjar did i actually made this kind of effort. She should be honoured, but still no thanks from her or whatsoever. Clearly never appreciate the things i've done for her. Bet Hajjar is so against her 'bcos of that. I don't know. I will just take things a step at a time. I'm so tired to actually think about this. Sigh.

Gonna shift house in few hours to come. No more "my room". I think i'm gonna get emotional here. This room of mine, hold lotsa of sweet memories. I basically grew up in this room. Found myself here. Only these walls bear witness to the joy and sorrow of my life. The ups and downs. They are the one i turn to to vent my anger and to release my tears. (Yes, Taibah i do cry, and please stop with your comments in msn. Its getting irritating.Hee.) Am listening to Billy Paul's Me and Mrs Jones, the one Taufik sang so perfectly. This song is supa-slow and nice and emotional. Simply loving it! (nah nah nah naaah..)

Shall stop here. Am so sleepy.

P.S Yes Miss Taibah is so baik, so jambu, is a great person, so funny and cute, a great catch, pretty, cute, beautiful smiles. Not! I lied. She is in fact the queen of the land of the Kentalz. That makes her SUPA-kental. She think she's funny, but she's not. She think she is a good fb player, but she's not. She think she's so hot, but she's not. She is crazy, insane, giler, tak siuman and banyak-banyak lagi la. Okla, that's not true also. She's just Miss Taibah, who's 24 but doesn't act her age. Period.

Me and Mrs. Jones -
we've got a thing going on.
We both know that it's wrong,
but it's much too strong
to let it go now.
We meet everyday, at the same café
6:30 I know - I know she'll be there.
Holding hands - making all kinds of plans
while the jukebox play our favorite song.
Me and Mrs. Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones
we've got a thing going on.
We both know that it's wrong,
but it's much too strong
to let it go now.
We've gotta be extra careful
That we don't build our hopes up too high.
'Cause she's got her own obligations
and so – and so do I...
Me and Mrs. Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones
we've got a thing going on.
We both know that it's wrong,
but it's much too strong
to let it go now.
Well it's time for us to be leaving
It hurts so much - it hurts so much inside
Now she'll go her way
And I'll go mine.
Tomorrow we'll meet the same place – the same time.
Me and Mrs. Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones – Mrs. Jones
we've got a thing going on.
We've gotta be extra careful.
We can't afford to build our hopes up too high.
I wanna meet,
and talk with you,
at the same place,
the same café,
the same time
And we're gonna hold hands like we used to
We're gonna talk it over, talk it over
We know, they know, and you know and I know that it was wrong
But I'll make it strong...
We've gotta let 'em know now
We've got a thing going on...
...thing going on...

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
5:09 AM