Friday, September 03, 2004

Damn..i think im in for it..i think ive actually fallen..fallen in love. The gal? Someone by e name of Hana..i actually bumped into her in EC..when she snooped ard my profile. And so the frenship grew frm dat day onward..We've met and talk on e phone..and i actually believe that she's the one for me..yesh..the One..the one who i actually wanna be with till i grow old..but..im pretty much so confused rite now..i mean..i don even noe how she feels towards me..and i cant possibly tell her abt my feelings since e frenship is still so young..but im so sure..e moment i set my eyes on her..dat shes e one..i noe..i noe..dat its too early but ppl do fall in love at first sight..rite?

Din talk to her or msg her today..i don wanna show her dat im actually pestering her..and i wanna convince myself dat wat im feelin rite now is for real..i mean..ppl come and go..i had crushes here and der..but dis is e first time im actually admitting dat ive fallen in love..and now im kinda dying to hear her voice.I miss her..yup yup..cant believe im actually saying dis..im gonna make dis straight..if within 3 days she don msg or call me..i take it..dat shes not "interested".Sigh i hope dat wont happen.i so wish she chld be mine.But shes not ready for any reln now..well dats wat she told me.Juz out frm a bad reln, she wanna "chill" for 2 yrs..gosh dats like so long..wonder if i chld wait..but i noe i could..is juz dat im scared dat she might find someone else by dat time..im so scared for dat to happen..im mean..i can see myself with her in the future.I can connect with her..we can talk..but i noe..sometimes being gd frens doesnt mean things are gonna be perfect if u were to go into a reln..sigh..wat am i gonna do?i need help..quick..

Listening to Michael Buble's How Can You Mend A broken Heart. The song is like so sad..touched my heart..I could cry listening to it but i wont..ive been thinkin alot today..maybe i shld juz tell her abt my feelings before i go to KL dis nov..some sort like running away..if the feelings dont reciprocate..i will juz whither my life away..wonder if dats e rite move..im so helpless when it comes to love..i guess too much bad experience frm e past..juz makes me an emotional wreck..i cant think straight..i keep thinking abt her e whole day today..even till now..

P.S: ive made up my mind to become a paramedic..gonna send in my application nx mth..wish me luck!

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