Saturday, October 14, 2006

I went down to Bukit Panjang (or some would call "Long Hill". haha.) just a while ago to go pay some debts (hah!) to the pawnshop. Actually it's my mum's monthly thingy. Just helping her so she won't need to travel all the way there.

And it just happen that someone lives really close to that shop. Someone whose name i won't mention. Really drat going there in the past 'cause i will then have sleepless nights for the next couple of days. Today's visit was somehow better. I saw her flat. And the place where we would always promise to meet up. The usual carpark where i would park. Everything that reminds me of the 'ol time. How it seemed like yesterday that things were so promising. As i make a U-turn and accelerate on my trottle, my back facing her place, it seemed that i've decided to leave the past behind. Leaving everything in the grand 'ol book of memories.

Another chapter closed.

A few days ago, while on the way back from terawih, i reminisced another fateful event.

"..yang..asal lambat sangat..? kan dah dekat nak bang ni..? bus lambat datang tau.."

"sorry la b...i baru abis mandi laaa..hehe" with that cheeky smile on her face.

And we would then just walk back home after prayers (since we live just opposite to each other. heh.). We would then take that chance to just talk. But not before stopping by the coffeeshop to buy a packet of Pepsi. *slurp*

Another chapter closed.

"yang...penat laaaa..angkat i boleh..?"

I would then piggyback her from school all the way back to her house (don't worry it's not that far if you're wondering). She would cooked for me everytime i went down to her place. And her sambal udang is really a killa. I lurveeeeeeeeee so much. Hehe. Her mum told us to get engaged back then. I wasn't ready. She's now married.

Another chapter closed.

So there you go. 3 different person. 3 wonderful person. The love of my life at different point of time. Though the inevitable happened, i cherished them alot, even 'till now. They were the one who taught me about love and life itself.

Why am i even saying all this?

Well. Love is built on memories albeit the good and bad. Not just promises or empty ones if i would say. You go through everyday life together to get to know each other. The bad habits. His/her liking to certain things. Routes taken. That's how you built on your relationship. It's pointless to hold on to something you're not destined to have. To a certain someone out there. Please do understand this. It is just not within my capabilities to work this out.

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
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