Tuesday, October 17, 2006

After 3 years and 7 months. I finally gotta admit. I got a huge problem regarding my love life. It's either that i'm turning gay (which i assure you that i'm not, else i will still be attached anyway. phfttt.) or that i'm becoming supa choosy. Or maybe perhaps i'm just not ready at all (but then again i'm sure not everyone who's attached out there is anyway)

I don't know. It's like i wanna be there to take care of that special someone. To make sure everything is going fine in her life. To be her pillars of support. To plant that tender soft kiss before she goes to sleep every night. But the problem now is that everytime i wanna start something with someone, miraculously i will be put off by everything (God knows what!). It's like there's this polarity. Like i'm being repel by a powerful unknown force (i hope it doesn't sound that dramatic now. ish.). It's like i'm drowning in fear. Perhaps it's the long period of singlehood that's making me to push back things. I'm already in my supa comfort zone and i don't know whether i wanna give it up. Will it ever be worth it? Hopelessly i don't have the answer to that.

And maybe i'm just trying too hard to find someone who could fit in the description i'm looking for - sweetsimplekindfilielreligiousindependenthappygoluckyaries(they match well with capris!)

Well that isn't too much to ask right? Not as if i'm asking for a Heidi Klum. I think it's reasonable enough. Heh.

It's like *gulp* 2 1/2 more months before 24 comes knocking on the door and never in my wildest imagination 10 yrs ago that i would think i'm still gonna be single a decade later.

Am i being naive here? Or do i just think too much?

Sigh. I will get back on it some other time.

Back to the cyber world of Onimusha. Get ready to be slayed you genma monsters!

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
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