Sunday, April 02, 2006
I feel like puking right now. Seriously.
Met an old fren just awhile ago. The one i shared 3 yrs of my life with. Found out she's gonna settle down in 3-4yrs time. Argghhhh. Opps. Not that i have anything against that. Fact is im happy for her. But there's just a tiny weeney part of me that felt resentment hearing that from her. Im not jealous or whatsoever but it could be me. Oh well. All along i think, if only i were to meet her in later part of my life. Things MIGHT just be different. A few days ago, 29th March to be exact should mark our 6th yrs anniversary if things never took a bad turn but as they said
"jodoh tak kan ke mana.." meaning errr..Fate will still bring the One for you no matter what happen. Rough translation la. My malay getting poor nowadays. Hah.
That reminds me of someone else..she said.."if only we were to meet when we're both 25..then things will be just perfect.."
OK. Anyway. I was attending religious classes in the evening (Yes i still go for classes ok. hmpf!). I actually attained something new today. It was told that that a few weeks during pregnancies, still in foetus form,
roh or souls are told of 3 things.
1. When they're (when born into the world) are gonna die.
2. Their
jodohs.
3. And i forget abt the 3rd one. Something about being pious, i think.
And if they (the souls) decide not to agree on the conditions presented to them, they (the foetus) will pass away before birth. Which automatically brings them to Heaven.
Which bring back to what i've been thinking. Obviously my soul agrees on the conditions. Duh. But is he really satisfied with them all? Hmm. Especially about the fate part? 'Cause the word MARRIAGE has been heard quite often the past few weeks. With some friends and cousins getting married. Mum has been like emphasising on the $20K point in order to get married. With all the young people that she knows basically attached, she happily think that i am one too. Little that she know that MARRIAGE is the last thing on my mind. I mean, i do wanna get married but there's still some things that i wanna do before settling down. Like for one being attached. Duh? Ok that one not that important. I wanna travel the world first. I wanna go Dubai, Geneva, Tyneside, Glasgow, Armsterdam, Madrid, Seoul, Prague and Rome (actually wanna go Paris too but that spot is reserved for my honeymoon.hehehe..). And to go there i need money. So MARRIAGE can take a backseat for now. Heh. I wanna be ready for MARRIAGE. So i can be the best husband and dad in the world. But before that i wanna have fun first. Hah that's for sure man. I wanna explore the world. Meet different kind of people. Visit St James Park.
Oh well. Im only 23. Still got a long long way to go. But truth to be told, im kinda afraid on how my future will unfold. Will worry about that later. Sigh.
God Can Explain - SplenderThere's a lot of things I understand And there's a lot of things that I don't want to knowBut you're the only face I recognize It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyesIt's alright, I'm O.K.I think God can explain I believe I'm the sameI get caried away It's alright, I'm O.K. I think God can explainI'm relieved I'm relaxed I'll get over it yet The scent of vasoline in the summertime The feel of an icecube Melting overtime The world seems biggerThan both of us Yet it seems so small when I begin to cryIt's alright
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11:25 PM
