Sunday, January 02, 2005

I guess it right. In the 3 weeks she wasn't here, she actually gotten close with that TZM guy (someone please define 'close'). Somehow i really felt so dissapointed. I don't know how to explain it but there's a tinge of jealousy in me right now. Add anger to that. Of all the time i was suffering non-stop and can't stop thinking about her, she..haizzzzz...i can't continue. It just hurt too much.

Gosh. I really hope that she doesn't take "us" as a game. Hope she won't lead me on. The pain is too unbearable to go through all over again. Period.

And so i rushed all the way back from JB, nearly got knocked down by 2 bloody malaysian cars to hear her talk non-stop about him, or 'the monkey'. WTF. I just kept quiet during the conversation. Wonder if she realised i was so pissed. But i simmer down, kept telling myself, that's her own life. She got the right to do so. I shldn't be so sensitive, egoistic, care only about myself and etc. And i guess, it work. I'm no longer mad at her or at whatever that had happened. In fact i have already take it within my own stride. Well, things happen for a reason right?

PS. She refered me as "Si Cina". A name i hate people calling me. You've been warned.

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
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