Thursday, January 06, 2005

I feel sick. Not in the way i'm down with a disease but just hate the feeling in me now. Was woken up by Faisal just now. Had a long talk about the D&D yesterday night. Found out that she actually deleted some of her contacts in her hp in order to store his number. OMG. I don't quite know what to say. Frankly speaking, i'm really confused about our status now. Isit just normal friendship? Dating? A "couple but not a couple"? I think even Faisal sound confused.

Just talked to her on the phone. She denied giving her number to him. Now i am the one who's confused. Which one of the two is saying the truth? Well, you know what? I don't care no more. All this D&D do is just to give me headaches. Shall stop talking about it.

The more i'm falling for her, the more i see that my feelings will not be reciprocated. Sometimes you might not know something is going to happen but you just have a feeling it will happen? Something like that. I forgot what it's call. Premonition? I think that's what it's called. I mean, just take a look at me now. There's so many things that i lack from her other suitors. I always have this thinking that i'm in this (to actually know her) dream. I'm don't know when the bubble gonna burst but if indeed one day i were to wake up from it, i hope by that time it won't turn into a nightmare. This can't be real. She won't actually wanna be with someone like me. It's impossible. I must be living in dream land. Somebody wake me up before i get hurt. Please.

Had a chat with T -

alternate pink nails says:
eh but serious eh.. fr my point of view.. she is juz stringin u along 4 the sake of ahving someone who is willing to do stuff for her.. while she seeks her own excitement and desires in those guys or guy dat ure tokin abt

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
wat do u think i shld do?
Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
ive gone wy too deep for her
Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
its hard to make a u-turn

alternate pink nails says:
i undstd

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
wat shld i do ah?
Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
help me laaaaaaaaa

alternate pink nails says:
but as hard as dat sounds.. uve got to go it.. ders no other way

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
but do wat?

alternate pink nails says:
i duno much lah.. but i wld love to hear more fr u ah.. but fr wat i noe now it seems like she is juz not in love wif u cos dats not how love is.. and the more u do 4 her, the more she takes u 4 granted and dats why she feels dat its ok for her to go for other guys

alternate pink nails says:
the harsh truth is dat she doenst deserve u lah

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
u noe wat
Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
ur e 2nd person to say dat

alternate pink nails says:
pls juz leave b4 u go in too much and all... its even harder den
alternate pink nails says:
well.. its the truth...
alternate pink nails says:
fr wat i read.. im sory but ive got to label her a bitch

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
dats so hard to do
Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
leave

alternate pink nails says:
so insensitive
alternate pink nails says:
i noe i noe
alternate pink nails says:
but uve got to do it
alternate pink nails says:
serious
alternate pink nails says:
it sounds pretty bad at this moment oredi

Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. says:
i really don noe.im so confused rite now

alternate pink nails says:
and wen i read ur willingness to do so many things for her all it breaks my heart seh.. she so doenst deserve it all
alternate pink nails says:
cant u see dat its like rain falling on sand? u keep on giving but u wont get anytin back in return.. u wont even see it
alternate pink nails says:
to u.. ure giving it ur all.. but to her she is juz taking it in and keeping it all inside.. while she enjoys herself in other means
alternate pink nails says:
u juz met the wrong girl dats all
alternate pink nails says:
remember the saying dat u wont noe who is right for u until u meet a lot of wrong ones before that... even tho the wrong ones may seem like the right one... but wen u meet the right one.. ull noe.. ur frens will noe.. ur family will noe...

This must be the most difficult period in my life. I can't seem to know what to do now. I'm brain-dead (i wish!). "Somebody saveeeee me, i don't care how you do it, but saveeee meeeeeeeeeee..(To the tunes of Smallville theme)

PS. "Pretence will only sink you deeper, sometimes so deep that you can't even see the light anymore. That is when you know you have lost what you had before. "

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
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