Thursday, December 30, 2004


Met her this evening. Been almost 3 weeks since i last saw her and the feeling while waiting for her was like the first time ever i met her. I had butterflies in my stomach. The meet-up was great. Got lotsa of things to talk about, lotsa of drama and acts. And not to forget laughters. I appreciate that she's willing to give me another chance at "us".

But somehow, i have mix-feelings about this. During the 3 weeks we never meet or talk, i found out she've been going out with new people. So it's like while i'm here suffering waiting for her, she's kinda enjoyed herself in the presence of someone else. I know i have no right to stop her from whoever she went out with but i just felt that it's not fair to me. Maybe it's just my ego talking and so i will keep that in check. So what do you think?

Whatever it is, i'm just happy that she's back in my life. I'm gonna try my darnest to make things better for good. Miss her pretty face. Felt like hugging her but refrained from doing so. Asked her whether she would be most willing to spend the new year countdown with me. It would be a great honour for me to be able to start a new year with someone special. Still haven't reply me. Maybe she's asleep. She had a tiring day at work today, so no complains.

Back. Just finished talking with her on the phone for two hours. She was awaken by her friend messaging her and thus gave me a call. It's great! So many things to talk about. I nearly forgot how wonderful it is to talk to her, when not arguing over something. Maybe I should just not be an supa-irritating guy and be nice to her from now onwards. I mean, if that will make things work out, why not right? No words could describe how delightful i'm feeling right now. Could she ever be the one? I hope so.

Am sleepy right now. Gonna smoke a fag and straight to bed. Ciao.

PS. I be dreaming of her tonight. Simply into her.

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3:35 AM