Thursday, December 23, 2004

"..Wen i c u smile, u look fine 2 me. But yr eyes seems 2 tell me a diff story. Like there's a tinge of sadness."

Bump into Seri yesterday at town. That's what she message me an hour later. She could never said it right. I was feeling down yesterday. Somehow i was hoping to bump into her, just to say a simple hi or a smile. Anything just to see her. But alas, i didn't. Tried to be as normal in front of the guys but in the end i would end up walking alone at the back. I don't know what has overcome me. It's like i can't move on. Damn. I'm feeling so shitty now that i can't do anything right. I wish things would turn around soon.

Somehow, i realised that i'm currently unemployed. It's like i got no direction in life right now, albeit i am waiting for my enlistment letter. But things are going real slow now that it almost make life seem so mundane. Talked to my cuz yesterday about matter of the heart. Damn my mum wanna intro me to a girl that somewhat is pretty (that according to her!). So what's up with all this man? Don't tell me even my mom knows i'm like a loser in love? That i need her help in finding my miss right?Oh come on now. Things can't be that bad right? I'm gonna take things real slow. Gonna find the right one myself. The one for me. I can't afford to experience all this again. Too much heart pains along the way just break me down. But before i could actually look for the one, i wanna make sure that i can support my family and myself first. No use having a special someone if you can't even support yourself. Have way too much plans for the both of us. I'm gonna learn from my past mistakes. I'm gonna treat her like i've never treat anyone before. She's gonna be my ultimate princess. Hah. At least there's some homour in me left. Or am i really joking? Hmmm, go figure.


Sagittarius and Capricorn

Sagittarius and Capricorn are quite temperamentally opposed. Easygoing Sagittarius is light-hearted, loves adventure and will bounce boldly into anything new and exciting. Conservative Capricorn is more interested in the long-term outcome, being a strange mixture of ambition and insecurity, with a need to prove things to themselves (and to the world).

Since this is a relationship of opposites, the intense sexual attraction between you will wash over the differences, but when the intensity begins to fade, you may focus on what you each imagine to be the other's flaws. You might perceive earth-bound Capricorn to be a bit of a stick-in-the-mud (except between the sheets), though your spendthrift soul will certainly appreciate the Goat's grounded understanding of and access to wealth.

Nevertheless, you can awaken in your Goaty lover the desire for some adventure and excitement, while Capricorn can encourage you to harness your energy, pay more attention to details and understand the social niceties that grease the wheels of human contact. Perhaps you, on the other hand, can teach this serious creature to lighten up a little.

However, Capricorn's demands are not easily satisfied by your flighty, lighthearted approach to love. In the art of lovemaking, Capricorn is enthusiastic and adventurous when aroused, but can be possessive and jealous when threatened. A light-hearted, flirty Sag can sometimes be overwhelmed by the intensity of the Sea-Goat's passion, coming as it does from beneath such an apparently cool exterior. Your approaches are totally different. Capricorn wants to climb to the top of the mountain, while Sagittarius wants to fly over the top.

Sagittarius, a Fire Sign, is ruled by expansive, outgoing Jupiter, while Capricorn, an Earth Sign, is governed by restrictive, structured Saturn. You'll jump into a new project on the strength of a good feeling, a philosophical assessment, while Capricorn wants to know the practical ins and outs of everything. Capricorn always worries about the consequences, but you love to get into things for the sake of your own personal satisfaction. Sagittarius, a Mutable Sign, is not much of a leader (though you'll happily play your part).

Capricorn, a Cardinal Sign, is quite creative and will originate good ideas and organise the best way to get the plan into action. This can help the relationship, so long as each other's roles are well defined. However, your frank outspoken nature is likely to upset Capricorn's conservative sensibilities. Capricorn is restrictive; a loner, famous for a somewhat dour outlook, while Sagittarius is venturesome, sociable and expansive. Capricorn is cautious with money and concerned with appearances -- and Sagittarius cares for neither of these. It's a difficult match.

PS. She highlighted that. "Its a difficult match". But, difficult is obviously not equal to impossible right? That she have to remember. "It's not always rainbows and butterflies it's compromise that moves us along"

Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
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