Saturday, November 13, 2004
Hey there. Today, 13th of Nov 2004 marks the end of the Holy month, Ramadan. It's been a long battle against hunger, lust and temptations. Wonder how i fare in my "report book". Sigh. Timecheck: 441 pm. Few more hours to break fast. And as usual, after Ramadan, is Syawal. Raya time!! Time to meet up with old acquaintances, wear new clothes and stuff ourselves with ketupat and lontong! Haha. This is the part about raya that I miss so much. Going to my grandma's house. Mingle with my young lil cousins. Watching malay variety shows while eating my favourite food cooked by my grandma which is like ohhh so superb. I like..hmmpp. And then that's the morning raya prayers. Didn't get to go last year. Was late 'cos waited for my friend. This year abit special since I be riding for the first time. Simply fabulous.
Neway yesterday had a really good talk with Zak. Was complaining all about Hana and I guess I now know what to do. There are always the pros and cons of life. So here goes the list.
- She thinks I've bad taste in clothing.
- She thinks I'm egoistic.
- She thinks I'm not romantic.
- She thinks I'm not taking initiative.
- She thinks that we are totally different from each other.
- I appreciate that she wanna make me look nice but I can't change my wardrope overnight right? Give me time dear.
- I am egoistic in a way, but I didn't actually realise that when Hajjar told me so.
( I need to be told in a calm way. If not I will only ignore what you're trying to say. Get that Hana? )
- I wanna be romantic but I'm always broke. I know know, whatever you think, money does matter.
- I'm gonna start wearing the pants in our relationship.
- I agree we are totally different but at the end of the day we are still here right? I mean, that matter most right?
Zak always ask me this questions and always everything I couldn't answer without actually thinking for a few minute.
What are the things I love about her?
- I love the way she smile at me.
- I love the way she just look at me.
- I love the way she kisses me.
- I love the way she hugs me.
- I love the way she scold me (It's true! Shows that she care right?).
- I love the way she nags at me.
- I love the way she dress up.
- I love how she smell.
- I love how she laugh.
- I love her hair, be it locks or straight hair. But I think I'm now more attracted to her locks.
Well, people taste does change right dear?
- Whatever it is, I love her just the way she is.
The thing about her is that whatever points she wanna tell me, she will tell me indirectly. I guess this is only good for me since I've been not using my brain for the past few years. Hee. I'm glad that I'm not being myself whenever I'm with her. 'Cos I only realised that me, being myself is real bad. I mean, this are all the lil flaws that is hardly taken notice by me. So I guess there's a purpose of her existance in my life. I keep complaining alot of stuffs about her, but I guess, whatever that she's mad about regarding me, there's always a reason for it. I always keep that in mind but sometimes I would just freak out 'cos I won't know what to anticipate.
I feel now that I can do it. I can make the relationship work out. What Zak says is right. I can't give up now. Not when I've gone thru alot. It will be dumb of me to just let her go. I'm gonna fight for her heart. Gonna try my hardest till the day she says "
i love you" to me. That's my wish for now. I must have a positive attitude. Amin, you can do it!!
P.S To all the muslims around the world, I wish you all Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Enjoy this significant time of the year. Take care and remember, don't drink and drive. Hah! Kidding..
Mister Turtle urge you to join the mutant war!!!
5:12 PM
